Sometimes I question the existence of God. I wonder where He lives. Does He live in the clouds? In the sky? What part of the universe? Where is He? When we encounter problems with our family, love ones, or problems concerning our job, is God really there helping us? Can you honestly say right now while you are reading this article that you have already seen God? That He already talked to you? Probably not! Just like me, you only heard so many good or probably bad things about God, but have you ever wondered if these stories are true or just a product of other people's imagination? I have questioned the existence of God so many times, because I have never seen or even talked to Him. I have never felt his presence or felt any of His apparitions.
When I'm suffering from life's dreadful tribulations I always cry for God's assistance, my heart cries as I beg for His help. When there's no more food on the table, He never served me food to pave away my family's starvation. When I lost my job because of downsizing, He did never provided me with employment. When I am suffering from a deadly disease, He did not cure me. People who suffering from these same instances are probably saying that this is just a test from God. Like an audition that we have to pass so we can be great actors in Heaven. Or an assessment period to check whether we are strong followers of God. Most of you who are in dire need of help, be it physical, emotional or spiritual, must have in some ways sought the motivating words of the Holy Scriptures. You have probably sought the inspiring words of the followers of God who wrote the scriptures without questioning the correctness of how the words were written and the accuracy of its translation.
Most of you who are reading this article, especially the faithful, might be on the helm of violent reaction and already in the point of writing a counter article about the existence of God. I am not saying that I am not a believer of God. But there are times that I cannot help myself for asking those logical questions about God. I know some of you have experienced the same instances like those mentioned in this article. Probably you are also questioning the existence of your religion's holy being but have no means of doing so because of the restrictions of one's faith. I can understand you because I am in that same dilemma. We are just humans, we are weak. But why did God made us this way?
Why did God made us weak but He also wants us to be strong? Why did he gave us the power to hate but He wants us to love. Why is God giving us problems yet He wants us to seek Him for His help. Why God did gave us brains to think but his religion condemn us if we question His existence. Writing this article gave me the chance to assess the foundation of my faith and to assess the groundwork of my religion. I have many questions why God did this, why God this that, God moves in a mysterious way as they say. But the bottom-line is, I am still alive, you are still alive. Maybe when we die all our questions about God will all be answered?
